So why am I back?
Here's the thing: I'm pregnant. And I have this massive guilt over the fact that I had a blog when I was pregnant with Brendan and then proceeded to blog pretty regularly for the first two years of his life. And here I am 14.5 weeks into my pregnancy and not a single entry since I found out.
I'm going to write a few sentences that sound like excuses to make me feel better and then I'll get on with updates. When I was pregnant with Brendan, we lived MUCH closer to where I work and I didn't have a toddler to take care of when I came home or on the weekends. If I felt like sitting on the couch all night/weekend then that's exactly what I did. Now, I have an hour commute each way and an absolutely adorable little boy who wants nothing more than to play with his Mommy when she gets home. So sitting my ever-expanding ass on the couch is not really an option.
I'm EXHAUSTED. And because of that I'm cranky and prone to mood swings mostly directed at my poor husband. It's hard to let the excitement of the pregnancy take over like it did the first time when I feel like I have so many things competing for my attention. What I would like is a nice, long vacation by myself where I can just sit on the beach, read a book, and not have to take care of anyone/anything but myself. Where do I sign up?
I realize I sound ungrateful. I am so blessed in so many ways and yet I can't always step back and appreciate what I have. So let me stop complaining and focus on all the wonderful things in my life.
A bit about this pregnancy. I have dealt with some morning (all day) sickness, but NOTHING like I had with Brendan. I've only thrown up three times whereas with him I threw up at least once a day. This time around my body is more sore, I'm dealing with more headaches and I'm just really tired. Some of these could be because I'm thisclose to "advanced maternal age" this time. :/
We are going to find out what we're having but have to wait another 5.5 weeks because my new OB doesn't do them before 20 weeks. Patience is really not my thing but I'm working on it. I'm excited about having a nursery to decorate this time and am also going to make some changes to Brendan's room while we're at it. Just a new paint color and a few new accessories here and there.
We've been living in our house close to a year now and absolutely love it. It's hard to remember living in that cramped apartment with no yard for Brendan to play in. The area is really nice and it's so peacefully quiet.
That's all I've got for now. Be back soon...
